2002-03-12 - 10:11 a.m.

...got comments on the weight I've lost lately...teachers...friends...family...and I know it's not the healthiest way but when your stomach's in knots...what else is there to do?...who cares...maybe I'll look alright by the time graduation hits...I'm not relishing the fact that I know certain things concerning the event...but it's ok...that day should be just dandy if Syl comes down and a few others see me as well...got an email from someone I had a really good talk with...he lives in anaheim but he's in NY on business...we're trying to KIT and hopefully we'll meet eventually...something to look towards...I haven't had many moments that I've had to look forward to lately...but now I"ve learned to make small goals for myself...and I"m keeping my eye on the prize as well...graduation=freedom...that's all I can ask for...*sigh*...if I can make it by then...things will look up...